A few months ago I sat on my back deck being interviewed by Boyd Sharpe- for footage we'll use for a documentary for people affected by brain tumours. At the end of the interview, Boyd wanted to the audience to know more about the personal side of my life so he said "Tell me about yourself."
I think he wanted me to say things like "I make an outdoor hockey rink in my front yard each year" or "I attend a karate class with my 15 year old son - it's a rare way to stay connected with my teenager" or "I love to ballroom dance with my wife."
But inevitably my mind goes blank when I'm asked to talk about myself. I don't think it's because I'm a humble person (I am blogging). It's more to do with a deeper spiritual feeling I have which is this:
There is no "me". Sure there's a body here that feels many sensations, and a personality for sure, and there's all these activities and thoughts and beliefs. But I can't identify the "I".
In the last few weeks I've had the urge to go to the library - and I found a book called the Translucent Revolution by Arjuna Ardagh. And I think it explains what I've been feeling. When asked the question 'who are you really?' I'm left with this incredible feeling of spaciousness and joy - a deep love for life itself.
Thankfully in this book many other supposedly normal people who are going through a spiritual transformation describe the same feeling/awareness.
So if you see me smiling while I'm flooding the rink, kicking my son, or floating over the dancefloor - you'll know why.
